Another Setback

I used to always think to myself, "It can't be that bad."  But in the end, it's always as bad as I thought it was.

I hate being right.  I mean, I'm not even that smart but I still just happen to be right anyways.  What the hell?

So the girl that I was talking about in the last post (who I like) has a boyfriend now.  I know -shocking.

But it gets even better.

So, my friend, who I talked about in the last post, wanted to hook me up with his friend. 

But here's the thing: she's currently dating someone right now.

I don't even know why he would mention it if that was the case.  He said that she was going to break up with him soon but, that would just leave me as a rebound.

But, it gets even better!

So I realize that not only is she dating someone but she's also being setup with some other guy by my so-called friend.  Why would he even mention setting me up with her if he was already in the process of setting her up with someone else?

And then, to top it all off, he invites me to a gathering that involves his girlfriend's coworkers and says, "You should come, her coworkers are cute and single."  So I show up and realize bit by bit throughout the night that not one, not even one, of his girlfriend's coworkers are single.  Literally every single one of them were taken, some of them even had children.

It's like he's trying to make me feel bad at this point.  And my self-esteem has reached rock bottom.  I've come to find myself doubting my reasons to live on a daily basis.  I just don't know why I even try quite honestly.  If I'm such a bad option as a boyfriend or anything else, why am I still here?

Anyways yeah, just figured I would get all of that off my chest since I had 10 minutes to do more stream of consciousness writing.  So, see ya later.